02/07/2013

     



      One week ago I lost someone I loved very much. 

      I have spent my days hiding from the light, haunting the dark corners of my apartment at night, feeling wrong at every breath, numb to everyone's sight.

      I stopped listening to music, as it hurts; the only song that never leaves my head speaks exactly how I feel. It may not meet everyone's musical preferences, but the reader will certainly agree the words get their way in. 

"We stare at broken clocks, the hands don't turn anymore.  

 The days turn into nights, empty hearts and empty places.   
 The day you lost him, I slowly lost you too.
 For when he died, he took a part of you.   

 No time for farewells, no chances for goodbyes.  
 No explanations, no f****** reasons why,  
 I watched it eat you up, pieces fallen on the floor.  
 We stare at broken clocks, the hands don't turn anymore.   

  If only sorrow could build a staircase, or tears could show the way,  
  I would climb my way to Heaven, and bring him back home again.  
 Don't give up hope my friend, this is not the end.   

 We stare at broken clocks, the hands don't turn anymore.  
 The days turn into nights, empty hearts and empty places.  
 The day you lost him, I slowly lost you too,  
 For when he died, he took a part of you.   

 Death is only a chapter  
 So let's rip out the pages of yesterday  
 Death is only a horizon  
 And I'm ready for my sun...  

 I'm ready for my sun to...  
 I'm ready for my sun...  
 I'm ready for my sun to set.   

 This is suicide season!   

 If only sorrow could build a staircase, or tears could show the way,  
 We would climb our way to Heaven, and bring him home again.  

 If only sorrow could build a staircase, or tears could show the way,  
 We would climb our way to Heaven, and bring him home again.   

 If only sorrow could build a staircase, or tears could show the way,  
 We would climb our way to Heaven, and bring him home again.  

 We would do anything to bring him back to you.  
 We would do anything to end what you're going through.   
 If only sorrow could build a staircase, or tears could show the way,  
 I would climb my way to Heaven, and bring him home again.  
 I would do anything to bring him back to you,  
 Because if you got him back, I would get back the friend that I once knew." 

                                                              Bring Me The Horizon, Suicide Season

Men's Road Race - Olympic Cycling - Road | London 2012

Men's Road Race - Olympic Cycling - Road | London 2012

Sorry for being away

I am double sorry, for not posting more often and for not having many stories to tell.
Life goes on at a faster pace, and I have devoted my days to work, thankfully being productive on that side.
Today deserved a blog post because I finally found a good app for blogging from my IPhone, and because it is my wedding anniversary.

I thank God for my health, my beautiful and smart wife, and all the comfort I have, able to write a blog post from a warm place.

I recommend you take care of minutes, for hours will take care of themselves. ~ Lord Chesterfield

Older and Wiser

      April 12th was my birthday, and since my last post I can state I am older and wiser.

      On 04/10/11 I started making wiser decisions when I switched my long bike ride from 100 miles to 60 miles as I did not train at all, and that was my first long bike ride of the year. Doing that I was able to enjoy the rest of a sunny Sunday with my wife, and walk straight for the following days. 

      As work has taken the best of me, I am in fault to proper training, but continue challenging myself in order to keep my sanity, and halfway health. On 05/01/11 I ran OC Marathon, in my third consecutive year, and used a run-walk strategy to be able to finish without getting hurt. Pasadena Marathon came next, two weeks later, and the rain on half course and the hills made me slower than LA Marathon, but I was proud of my strong finish. 

      Now thinking about Ironman Arizona I have started to diversify my training (or, in other words, start training properly...), I swam 3200 meters at Coast to Coast Swim Challenge and started making plans. Right on time when Buckeyeoutdoors had a massive meltdown and lost all my training log and plans. 

      Today I ran the Brentwood Run 10K in order to assess my fitness, before starting proper training. I did suffer during the run, but finished right according to my predictions. Pace 8:51min/mile, with bonus of placing 253 overall in 521, 26 out of 41 in my age group, without any speed training. 

      So much seriousness and commitment need a escape valve. Older and wiser, now I have hardened on my music preferences and embraced Heavy Metal. All day long, regular radio does not soothe me anymore. 

      Thinking again, maybe not that wise. For two of the last three marathons, I went to shows four days before the races. But I'll say it is all part of the challenge...